tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61879517057733765452024-03-13T21:01:50.202-07:00The daily life of an obsessive dieter!dietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.comBlogger129125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-79047544664381706312009-11-05T08:40:00.000-08:002009-11-05T08:45:17.128-08:00uh oh!eep! well today I woke up really late which Im usually happy about bc den theres less temptation to eat all day! So I had my mango and blueberries for breakfast and my fat free blueberry yoghurt mmm! then I planned the session I had today with my personal trainer client and studied a bit. The I had the session1 2 cups of weight loss tea and then I had my dinner there. 3/4 tin of beans and spinach mushrooms and sweetcorn! mmm no quorn today! I ran out of quorn pieces and dont wanna try any of the quorn products covered in sauces or breadcrumbs so I cudnt eat them! Im only planning on having 2 slices of ww bread and a soup later and maybe another mango hunger depending of course. Havent had time to exercise yet today. cept I did a bit with the trainer client so I was a bit active but waiting to see if my friends up for a walk now! well power it out haha! g2 take my calium for today and my iron supplement still. I think Ive gained weight ugh! well obv bc Im eating more! Im gonna have to go back over this blog to monitor what I was actully eating! anyway I started reading the secret! its really good! I feel like what Im reading is amazing but find it hard to implement what its suggesting! therapy 2mro Im scured! xxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-53206004635834621902009-11-04T13:55:00.000-08:002009-11-04T14:06:15.380-08:00THERAPY!Guess whos starting therapy on friday! woop woop! I got an appointment and its going to be either low cost or free because Im on social welfare! lets get me sorted! also today I woke up and went shoplifting and got myself the self help book the secret except its one for teenagers but thats fine cz Im 22 and still act like a lost little confused teenager haha! also got my daily dose of mangos! I am eating more and a bit more healthy but calorie intake is still quiete low, but Im eating 2 low fat yoghurts a day actually not low fat fat free and there 50 calories each! omg w8 I dont wna get into calories! fock! but I am taking an iron sachet every day and 3 calcium tablets a day now! I hope I get my period back soon!<br />Flushed!! the reason your not getting your period is probably because your diet is so unbalanced! bc even when I wasnt underweight I wasnt getting it but that was because I was only eating fruit and veg! so please look after yourself! your gonna get to your goal weight I know it but please make it realistic and healthy because I LOVE YOU 2!<br />Anyway Ive been eating the exact same foods for the last week and I did an hour and 20 min fit ball workout and 2 power walks! I tried to tell my mom Im going for therapy on friday but I actually just couldnt! I hate upsetting ppl by letting them no Im upset! altho I got in a bit of trouble today bc I bought this rice thats low in calories but I havent been able to bring myself to eat it but its still in the kitchen and its mine! for me! and my little brother fecking ate it all and I was gettin pissed off bout it and then he told my mom that hed eaten it all and then she realised that Id been lying about eating it! fock!<br />anyway Ill go talk to this therapist on friday and see if wel be able to work together and den tell my mom bc I also have a number for another one! I have to figure out what I want out of life and how I can achieve it safely and healthily!<br />Hopefully I will benefit from therapy!! woop Im excited! I can come on this and be like well my therapist says teehee!<br />anyway Ill let you no how I get on! I really really really wna get out of this dinner on friday but I feel so bad bc my uncles over from america and my aunt from england and it will mean alot to my dad if I go yah no?! and he looks after me so well I dont want to be a bitch! but if I go Im bailing this healthy plan not eating 2mro or friday! and sat and sunday I wont be able to work out bc I have my course 9-5 and unless I do an evening walk exercise is out!!!<br />anyway great recovery teehee!<br />xx<br />k I just realised what I typed I feel like a skitzo! must get period back and be healthy!!!dietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-46999875318927620232009-11-03T16:37:00.000-08:002009-11-03T16:41:48.112-08:00ugh!so basically I nonly feel like eating is justified if I do at least one workout and a power walk a day! I did not do my power walk today! I feel like Im eating way too much now! I just want my period back so I can be thin but at a weight where I dont risk osteporosis or infertility! Also I would like to stop being such a freak about food! I dont wna be calculating calories in my head all day and at nite tinking about what Ill eat da next day! I dont even wna type da list of what Im eating right now! Theres this family dinner on friday and as soon as I heard about it its like I either make an excuse to get out of it or I starve all week in order to go but still not want to eat any of the food available but clearly now after my moms and uncles comments Im going to be monitored yah no?!<br />I need to tell my mom I wna tlk to sum1 and get myself sorted! I dont wana get further into this viscious cycle but I feel like thats whats gonna happen bc of the fact that I dont really have much to focus on right now! xxxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-19790009585654240132009-11-02T10:40:00.000-08:002009-11-02T10:48:11.433-08:00harder than I thought!So much for my big goodbye stage eh! Ive still been reading your blogs but didnt wna post! I actually think Ive been eating less than usual! I no longer want to fill my body and gorge on fruit and veg! Im eating really small quantities! but Im having weight watchers bread 44 calories per slice and spoons of beans bit of quorn and a fat free 50 calorie yoghurt! I really dont want to put on weight at all I just want to be a bit more normal and not feel like a freak when people suggest going for lunch! I havent been able to work out in 3 days! but yday I went for a power walk and today I did an hour of fitball and a power walk aswell and thenI had to set up my clients personal trainer programme so I was doing exercises then too! mmmm....<br />I dont no if you remember but I went to a summer party and one of my friends was anorexic and looked so so so bad! I wnearly burst into tears! well I went to a party on saturday and she was there and shes in recovery and thank fuck she lukd less like death and she speaks so openly about her disorder I find it easy to confide in her! she told me I do look extremely thin and I told her that means nothing to me! I asked my brother last night did I look sickly thin I was kinda hoping hed say yes so Id be like right cop te fuck on and get your life back on track but he said no but u wudnt want to get any thinner.<br />But then my uncle who I saw last christmas was over from America and he seriously never comments on people and I said bye to him and he said out loud infront of everyone youd want to put on a bit of weight your looking extremely thin! haha!<br />Im tryna start going to therapy or something bc there is just too much going on for me to deal with! Im feeling healthier now that Im not stuffing my face with what I considored safe foods but I just want my freakin periods back! my mom said so much stuff that just sacred the shit about me! I still dont considor myself thin enough to have an eating disorder or to be put in that bracket but I did an online questionaire andn it really hit home!<br />Im still trying to recover a bit but I think Im gonna stay on this bc I need you guys! xdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-6104372555644427712009-10-27T17:52:00.000-07:002009-10-27T18:01:42.456-07:00goodbye!I am writing to say good bye! I am currently in rehab! My family have called me on my behaviour I am being monitored and guess what I want help! I have no periods and no boobs. I am unhappy. I am under 7 stone. Im depressed. I dont see how making my life revolve around my daily calorie intake was going to be helpful but it did seem like it would be at the time and now I have to sort out one hell of a fucked up mind!<br />Im going to eat like a normal person. not binge and not restrict. Im gonna look and feel healthy. Im going to exude confidence and make myself be fun around! Im going to not stress out my family about having meals out and all that malark! Im still gonna be healthy and workout so dont think Im going off to become a huge heffer or netin! Anyway Ive got to stop blogging and sort myself out! blogging did help to some extent but reading all your blogs made me feel like I was never restricting or dieting enough. My mom spoke to me and reminded me off the pain my nanny was in when she got osteoporosis and all that and about the risks of infertility. I dont want that in my life. Why am I abusing my body?! Its going to be hard but I want to actually be a healthy person and Im going to be!<br />Please just ask yourselves why are you doing this? I realised looking back at photos that I was never fat and back then I was eating doughnuts and meat!!! I didnt binge or restrict! I didnt overly think about it I just ate what I ate when I wanted and when I was hungry! I want to go back to that! but never c myself eating a doughnut again haha but you never no! what are you looking to accomplish? this is not the way! I hope this makes some one rethink their actions but I think youl have to realise it yourselves and hopefully it wont be too late. I always used to say like a lot of ppl when I reach this weight and when I can fit in this and that......it doesnt mean shit! its about you! how you feel in your own skin! fucking stop counting calories ditch the focking scales live your life! love your life! and love yourself! bc you deserve happiness and you control your happiness and this is not the way to happiness so pls pls pls pls pls get out before your in too deep!<br />best of luck to everyone! and especially to my dear blogger friend Flushed who always looked out for my happiness!! IPlease still feel free to email me!<br />xxxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-52829563654717711102009-10-14T07:28:00.000-07:002009-10-14T07:32:37.748-07:00eating in moderation!Its da key I know it is but can I do it!<br />eek! wel c! well not the best today got up ate 3 mangos and blueberries!<br />but then I did an intense 30 min circuit - squats/lunges/dumb bells/skipping/step and more!<br />followed by 25 min of bikram yoga poses in my house and stretching!<br />den I had my diet pills with one slice of weight watchers toast, some carrots/peppers/onion and garlic with some reduced fat hummous!<br />was amazing! and Im not all bloated now or anything!<br />usually I eat too much veg and have to spend the next 2 hrs deflating!<br />but now Im all good in the hood! gonna study in a bit and this evening embark on a beginnners running programme! :)<br />woop woop positivity!<br />gonna make myself be happy!<br />also Im entitled to the dole so Ill be getting money money money for doing nutin nutin nutin!<br />xxxxxx<br />also Im not gonna eat fruit in the evening anymore.<br />fruit in the morning<br />low cal carbs for lunch<br />and protein and veg for dinner<br />herbal tea and water in between<br />:)dietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-46634308057838955302009-10-12T18:17:00.000-07:002009-10-12T18:23:01.905-07:00hellowell it is 2.30 am in ireland and I am tres drunk haha! danced alot and seriosuly just kissed a zac efron luk alike! the guy I am in love with thinks Im sound and hot but doesnt want a long distance relationship even tho we do not live that far away! excuses excuses! anyway I am very confused about my body weight. I dont wna weigh myself. fb says I shud be 115 lbs for my height and last time I was weighed I was 111 lbs adn that was before I got the life ruining fucking surgery on my foot! ewww!<br />anyways I have not been eating any carbs adn have been living on mangos, blueberries then a dinner of butternut squash sum kidney beans and mushrooms :)<br />Ive been doing pretty well but my mom is keeping a close eye since my uncle made those fucking comments! a<br />amadan<br />which is idiot in irish haha<br />anyways I like the way I look right now! yes I feel my thighs are touching a bit but Im doing my walk and my 100 tricep dips and 100 abs and inner thigh exercises a bit of skipping! trying my best to have fun bc I have decided to enjoy my time as much as piossible untill december bc Im gonna just chill the fuck out if possible adn dedicate my time to my pt course and then after xmas maybe go work abroad for a bit and then college in september!!<br />eep!<br />no tears 2nite despite my vodka intake. def no carbs for the rest of the week :)<br />the only carbs I did have today tho was 3 rivita crackers which equals 60 calories so not the worst bc thats the equivalant of a piece of fruit and I easily danced that off! xdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-32590214743568507912009-10-10T11:38:00.000-07:002009-10-10T11:41:36.682-07:00vodka tearsok well last nite my guy didnt show up! bastard! I hate my life so much rite now that he was the only thing I seemed to be looking forward to! and then what happens hes a feckin no show! dam him accepting the invite on facebook! anyways dont no how it happened but last nite I broke down in tears! which I never fockin do form drinking like and told every1 I was suicidal and da only reason I havent killed myself yet is bc I would never do that to my family! omg dramatic much haha!<br />Then my mom was all like today I got you this type of bread blah blah I want to see you eat 2 slices of that now! and then she wanted me to eat sweet potatos! but I only did one walk today so no carbs allowed!<br />I i i........<br />where is my life going! basically thru myself at one mi guy friends and he was so drunk he didnt even notice! I need sex NOW!!!dietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-69315443596166939652009-10-08T14:23:00.001-07:002009-10-08T15:43:00.700-07:00omg!omg listen to this! sorry I havent been posting but I have been extremely up and down on da mood front!! Ive been debating wheter or not to keep posting! Its important for me to have somewhere to vent all my life fustrations but I just dont feel like it has been getting me anywhere! Ive started my personal trainer course which is alot of work but I want to take it on and do it properly! like really properly and then maybe after christmas move abroad and work as a pt! and then come back for college in september! woop woop! life plan! which means that I have to just chill the fuck out and have fun untill then! and study for my course of course haha!<br />Ive been walkaing super loads! doing 100 tricep dips a day! seriously my ass is so tight from all the walking! I also went to badminton! Ive bailed on the yoga! I cant do it anymore! but if I dont like something Im not gonna do it!<br />anyway I wasnt gonna post at all untill my mom came into me just there and was like Lexy please tell me you had some sort of carb today! I said I did! She said your lying. She said you look awful and gaunt! I dont know if any of you have that show emmerdale but theres a girl on it debbie I tink and shes anorexic in real life. I didnt no this and I dont watch da show but my mom does. I saw her on da show da other day and was like omg wat happened her she used to be pretty! is she playing a homeless person now!? and my mom was like no shes anorexic now! I was like o shit! anyways my mom was like u look like debbie from da show! I was like its bc Ive stopped wearing make up and fake tanning bc I havent been going out that much! she said no stop making stupid excuses. My uncle Lorcan even said it to her and she said she had to make excuses for it and tell him Ive been under alot of stress but I eat normally haha yeh rite! anyway Im very confused! I feel like Ive been getting fatter and fatter! I feel like my thighs and touching eachother all da time! I dont no who to believe! I always feel fat and bloated! I want to get with the boy that I like 2mro nite so bad so I cant be bloated! So Im gonna get up walk in the morning have mangos and blueberries for breakfast and lunch! then dunno what else Im gonna eat but before I go out drinking Im gonna have banana toast and cinamon :) dend drinky drink drink! make my guy love me and get my feckin number for once and for all! xxxx<br />k I txt my friend and asked her was I sickly thin! I wanted her to say yes! but she said no but I was very thin and definetly should not be trying to get any thinner! so not the answer I wanted! so now I feel like my mom and uncle are just being weird and Im not puttin on weight! altho I would like to get out of this food rut! Where I binge and gorge on ridiculous amounts of fruit instead of eating regular meals and then get bloated form the amount of fruit whereas I might not if I just ate a regular meal you know?<br />mmm!dietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-83931793591633990352009-10-06T09:51:00.000-07:002009-10-06T09:52:15.763-07:00any irish?I need a text irish person to keep me motivated! Im getting fat and lazy! pls help me xdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-60286482070416395732009-09-30T13:16:00.000-07:002009-09-30T13:20:11.531-07:00wna die!had a job interview so had to get up a 10 which is early for me! didnt sleep till round 4! was ridick! my morning no2 routine was ruined I tell u. I havent gone to the toilet properly so I will be takin laxatives 2nite bc if I dont go proper I no it will build up in2 an attack! grrr!<br />didnt eat very well today. 1 slice of toast, 1/2 a banana, cinamon. mangos, celery, vegetables, sum bolgenese light sauce a few kidney beans. h8 mi life. bloating central. suicidal. wna die. tried to go walking it was such a struggle. felt like the longest walk ever ever ever!dietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-25128247920775674862009-09-29T13:28:00.000-07:002009-09-29T13:29:12.240-07:00depression2 slices of toast, tomato, reduced fata hummous, kidney beans, mushrooms, brocolli, 2 mangos, 1 apple. job interview 2mro frankly couldnt give a flying fuck! 1 walk, no yoga.dietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-50953571722743339252009-09-28T13:25:00.000-07:002009-09-28T13:27:16.932-07:00SHUT THE FUCK UP!UGH MY MIND IS SO FUCKIN ANNOYING! Ive given it wat it wants! I went to yoga! felt starving after ate some fruit, still hungry ate toast, still hungry yoghurt! ugh! shut up!!!<br />I give up! I want to diedietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-42711763212877956562009-09-28T06:57:00.000-07:002009-09-28T07:00:51.301-07:00OMGugh brutal brutal nite last nite! was basically up all nite! must of fell in and out of sleep afterwards but heard my dad getting up for work round 6 then my brother at 7 and then my mom and other brother round 8! was awful! got up was going to have muesili with milk but then I just had a few tablespoons of muesili by itself then had my yoghurt flaxseed and toast banana and cinamon and half a fokin melon! that seems like so much Im ashamed to be typing this! grrr anyway it was all very healthy and with skinny bitch rules! den I walked to tesco got mango and strawberries so had a bowl of that there was lovely! going to yoga at 6.30 so g2 eat my dinner at 4! wat to have....wholgrain rice with kindey beans? or I duno! I cant do this its so hard! every nite wen Im lying there hungry adn tinkin tinkin bout food I say Ill eat healthily and it will be fine but I cant its so hard! I bought laughing cow light cheese spread but I dont no if I can have it! but I could eat that with sum cracker bread and tomato instead of a whole meal yah no?<br />pls sum1 help me Im goin demented! Im gona go skipping for a few mins and do squats and lunges! get a little circuit going in my gaf!<br />xxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-80742567185233405322009-09-27T13:14:00.000-07:002009-09-27T19:39:44.858-07:00day of 3 no2!haha yes u read correctly!<br />what the fok! I have gone to the toilet everyday for a week! I awesome haha!<br />so happy! last nite was fun! we danced alot! alot of calories burned haha! only exercise I did today was a 40 min power walk that included to intervals of running up at least 30 steps! was fun! got up took my diet pills and all ate 3 tablespoons f muesili, my yoghurt, flaxseed. Had my banana toast and cinamon :) then I had my dinner which was butternut squash mushrooms and brocollie. Then I had mango and melon.<br />gna walk and do yoga 2mro! x<br />omg ew! its 3.40 am! I cannot sleep! I have been ignoring hunger pains for 2 hrs now and have gotton up and eaten sum sugar snaps and Im havin some hot soya milk! light of course! wtf I better be able to fall asleep now!<br />ugh I need to start eating properly. Im feeling brutal all da time! its not what I signed up for when I wanted to be this thin! xdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-54965915753872671142009-09-26T03:04:00.001-07:002009-09-26T10:18:20.050-07:00day 6 no 2man I love typing no2 after all my posts teehee! hell yeh!<br />ok so Im not entirely impressed with todays start but Ill try stay positive and make things go my way teehee. So I set my alarm for 10 o clock so I could go to yoga at 11! thank god I had a good sleep last nite. anyway woke up and was rli tired but I gt up gt dressed contacts in make up but felt like shit. and was definelty in need of a shit! I knew it wasnt a good idea going to yoga bc I was in pain and dun dun dun felt like shit. and Im trying not to force my body to do things it doesnt want to do. Im trying to listen to it. So I had to bail on yoga :(. I got up and went downstairs and got my banana and toast and cinamon mmmm and peppermint tea and went back up to my bed and watched some kourtney and kloe take miami and 30 mins later shit done and I feel gr8! seriously this is day 6 of this little ritual and it works a charm so I cant be getting up early and rushing off ( yes 10 is early for me right now haha).<br />so now Im gonna go for a walk with my mom is a bit and possibly go to 4 o clock yoga bc I no Ill prolly miss yoga 2mro! I have gone for 7 days straight.<br />anyway Im not eating dat ww soup anymore its too hard on my system. Im liking da toast and I mite look into low fat hummous or sumtin.<br />carbs help me! there not so hard on my system dammit!<br />I want mango!<br />xx<br />still is bed watchin greys anatomy! o the gud life haha!<br />just read an article in cosmo about uni-rexia! bout ppl turnin ana wen they go to uni! weird eh!<br />I dont wna put on weight. I want ppl to go omg wen did u get so thin! jesus uv lost loadsa weight! and sum1 whos not my mom!<br />xx<br />k went walking with my mom. I didnt feel great tbh! I was struggling and all I could think about was how hungry I was! afterwards we went to lidl where I ran in and had to demolish an apple. When I got home I was going to make butternut squash soup instead I just cooked them and sprinkled them with soya sauce adn ate like chips! dey were amazing! then my mom insisted on a slice of toast! 42 cals ate it dry! now Im off to burn it all off in yoga!!<br />she is preparing rice for me wen I get back dammit! I will not be eating it! when I come back I will be having a yoghurt and some pineapple and mango and done for the evening!<br />den partying it up woop woop!<br />xxx<br />went to yoga! shudnt of gone. 2 much food in my system b4 a class not a good idea at all. anyway! its time to cop the fuck on bc I feel like shit so I got a soya yoghurt and added 3 teaspoons of muesili! I didnt eat any yday so da 3 tablespoons I ate da other nite shud be balanced out by now! Im gonna have some flaxseed now and hopefully Ill no2!<br />Im not going to yoga 2mro! Im taking a fokin break. I was supposed to listening to my body but Im ignoring it all over again! and being in a 90 min class and wanting to leave b4 it even started was not an enjoyable experience! xdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-40364955446207322662009-09-25T16:11:00.000-07:002009-09-25T16:17:55.236-07:00still day 5k its still day 5. dinner was a joke! I feel like shit I look like shit! my mom said Im just hair and a head on top of a tiny body! I look like a mess. shes askin me do I wna get highlights! anything to make me look less shit right now haha! as good as the yoga is for me I cant tan or wear lotsa make up bc I just sweat it all off so I no Im lookin a mess right now but only for another few weeks till my yoga offer expires and then I cant afford it anymore! then Im gonna join the badminton club tuesdays and thursday and take up a weekly yoga class me thinks! anyway right back to me I look like shit I feel like shit. yes I did a shit. hahaha. but I feel weak and not right tbh!<br />anyway at dinner my mom was like I wnt to see u eating a carb so I had too. well prepare one anyway. she wanted me to have brown wholegrain rice which is kul with the skinny bitch rules right but its 255 calories a serving! wtf! so em no thank you. so I decided it wouldnt be the worst thing in the world to have a baked potato. didnt eat it! added light bolegnase sauce to my veggie kidney bean stir fry and wrapped the potato in kitchen role and disposed of it later. My mom was like Im really getting worried about u so I had to pretend to eat a carb.<br />neway Im goin out on the sesh 2mro nite. there are no soya yoghurts left whihc is good bc I was looking for sumtin to eat earlier and considored havin one! so Ill pick up more 2mro after yoga which Im gonna wake up early for bc after 2mro nite I dont think Ill be able to go on sunday!<br />I dont no where my life is goin xxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-34333305328673494282009-09-25T03:14:00.000-07:002009-09-25T06:46:21.270-07:00day 5....ok so its day 5! I didnt sleep well again last nite and no no2 as of yet. Im only up like 20 mins tho. I kept feeling so hungry last night so ended up coming downa dn eating 3 tablespoons of muesili! I swear to god I give myself an inch and I have to take a mile dont I! well now Im banned from muesili till monday! thats how dis is gonna have to work teehee. Ive just had the toast banana and cinoman for breakfast adn my yoghurt sans muesili and Im off to burn it all of with 90 mins of yoga! for the rest of the day I will have fruit and veg. 2mro. I did a bit of research and you no those ryvita crackers? well there like 20 cals a slice and Im having two slices of toast dat equal 84 calories so I could actually have 4 ryvita and save four calories eh eh?! so I think I might branch out a bit but wel c. I do like the toast as of now. After yoga Im gonna pick up mango and melon and my mom has made a big pot of ww soup. pray for a no2!<br />laters xxx<br />back from yoga. great class. had 2 amazingly perfectly ripe mangos! I think Im shoplifting to much stuff from the same store. Ive been going to the same store for fresh fruit everyday this week and getting loadsa magazines aswell teehee!<br />still no no2 so Im drinking lots of water!<br />also Im taking a new supplement. cant think of the name intestine aid or sumtin. anyway day 1 of it today. Ill keep u posted xdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-35713762451854996932009-09-24T08:01:00.000-07:002009-09-24T13:48:34.119-07:00day 4 no2!omg what a great week Im having haha! slept very badly last night tho! lotsof nitemares so I feel all ibs stomach crampy. Im identifying the patterns by keeping this blog. so lack of sleep! not good for ibs haha! but at least I number 2! woop woop! ditched the cornflakes today! woop I dont need it. Im gonna stcik with the organic muesili and alpro soya yoghurt adn flaxseed.<br />got nice mangos adn a nectarine for lunch.<br />went power walk on my own.<br />my mom wants to go for one aswell but I wna go yoga and dont no bout doing another 2 workouts. she told me shes on my case now about eating and that she wants to see me eat my toast and banana. which I will do before yoga!<br />having a fight with one ma friends! ughhhhhhh! ppl can fok off and stop stressin me out! its not good for the ibs! I go with da flow now. no pressure!<br />update later x<br />toast banana and cinamon, bowl of ww o points soup, 90 min yoga, veg stir fry with baked beans! weight loss tea, green tea diet supplements! xdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-87248572732199367672009-09-23T05:40:00.000-07:002009-09-23T13:38:50.808-07:00day 3 of no2!another day another no2 hell yeh frickin yeh! went out last nite and danced da nite away so burned a gud few cals Id say! wasnt a great nite tho! only went bc I got a free ticket to this social and bc I wanted to score a hottie which I didnt and nrly scored this guy I know whos fat but theres just sumtin about him and Im glad nutin hpnd bc it wuda bn so embarressing!<br />neway wasnt a great nite woke up drank so much water weight loss tea. had my museili handful of cornflakes and alpro soya yoghurt. Then I had a kidney stir fry-so gud! cooked in light soya sauce! anyway Im on the green tea diet supplement at the moment!<br />going for a walk in a bit which will be 40-45 minutes! gna go get my mangos then and then go to yoga at either 4.30 or 6.30!! Its gonna be hard bc Il have alcohol in da system!<br />duno if Ill have toast today but dont wna have dat peanut butter again it has to be reduced fat or sugar or salt or sumtin! the holland and barrett one is gross tho! mmm...wat to do!<br />just another day in da life of da exact same routine haha!<br />my friends annoyin me today! Im not havin ppl puttin pressure on me! dats all Im saying! fok dem Im doing my own thing!x<br />power walk and yoga.<br />no toast!<br />never gna eat peanut butter again! wtf I tried to buy organic ones! there is no such thing as low fat peanut butter! my mom suggested I try toast with banana and cinamon which I mite try! bc I dnt mind da toast bc its 84 cals for 2 slices! and cinamon speeds up ur matbolism! I 4got to take flaxseed today so took sum there and Im done for the day!<br />hope all u lovelys are doing well.<br />my mom said pls have some toast your looking so skeletal!<br />luv it!<br />I wna bf!<br />or a friend with benefits..........sum1 shud be worshipping this body yah no!<br />xxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-47543943244065056912009-09-22T06:51:00.000-07:002009-09-22T12:21:33.325-07:00no2!day 2 with a no2! woop woop! sry but untill u have been extremely constipated u will not understand how amazing it is to go no2 woop woop!<br />so I got up and had da most relaxing morning! I woke up and set up gossip girl season 3 ep 2 to watch on my lap top! I went downstairs ook my fat metaboliser pill and probiotic pill and had 3 tablespoons of muesili with 1 handful of cornflakes and an alpro soya yoghurt with some flaxseed and a herbel weight loss tea! bliss. then I got up around 1 had half an apple and a power walk with my friend in the park! was lovely! then went to the shops to shoplift my mangos! and there were none of the readily ripe mangos so I just had to buy regular ones which were crap andn so unripe so I just through it out was devastated! Im so set in my ways with my manogs! haha I had a feeling they would be crap so I bought a small honey dew melon which I have just eaten! Im gonna go to yoga at 6.15 or 8 I tink I wna go at 6.15 just worried about parking! but man Im getting addicted to bikram! google it!<br />I feel like Im getting fatter tho! damn me trying to incorporate carbs healthily into my diet. but the thing is now is the right time to be eating them bc Im doing up to 2 and a half hours of exercise a day and I wont be able to keep this up all the time u no!<br />hope ur all doing well!<br />xx<br />k Im back went to yoga at 6.15 came home at 8 ate 2 sliices of ww bread 84 calories mashed on a tiny banana and had a spread of peanut on each slice! 2mro Im possibly gonna buy reduced fat and sugar peanut butter or maybe try a bit of nutella although I prefer peanut butter! everything in moderation guys! come on if Im working out this much I should be entitled to that! right! plus my mom said to me today I remind her of an anorexic and dat I look gaunt and ill! I told her I feel great which isnt really true but I wanna maintain the weight Im at and hopefully I can by eating a little more normally!<br />hope I havent digusted any of u!<br />xx<br />4got to say after I ate it I did loads of jumpin jacks and lunges and skipping to kick start da metabolism! even though Im just back from a 90 minute yoga class! xdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-59812613783241217342009-09-21T10:58:00.000-07:002009-09-21T11:06:03.621-07:00hey hey!so last nite was up with cramps but today I got up and went no2! yeh! at long fokin last so I feel like a new person! still a bit tired tho from being up all nite but I slept till 11.45! I didnt beat myself up about not getting up and working out right away bc I decided either way I would do a power walk and my 90 minute yoga class!<br />I got up and decided to have 2 tablespoons of muesili with my alpro soya yoghurt!<br />I then typed up a college assignent for my brother! It only took me an hour but he gave me 10 euros for it!<br />I had 2 cups of peruh weight loss tea.<br />I then had 2 mangos- which I researched last nite! and they have no carbs! woop, no fat and their good for constipation!!!<br />I then had a bowl of cabbage soup 0 points on ww!<br />then I went for my power walk with my mom. followed by grocery shopping where we were served by a pretty hot guy! mmm....my mom asked me did I notice him checkin me out?!? mmm not sure!<br />anywhoodle on the way home me and my mom snacked on sum sugar snaps!<br />then I had my kidney bean stir fry! kidneys beans - high fibre! no fat! good for constipation!!<br />I made extra for my mom and she didnt want it all and asked me if I wanted more but I said NO! even tho I totally did teehee! anyway took my fat metabolism pills and b vitamins and pro biotics. I must say I am missing my alpro soya light milk :(<br />anyway Im going to yoga at 8.30! I may or may not have another mango or an apple before then!<br />Im looking into yoga teacher training courses!<br />how perfect would that be! every yogi is nearly vegan or at least they eat healthily! they dont stress and they get to do yoga retreats!!!dietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-10036515828551428102009-09-20T03:55:00.000-07:002009-09-20T04:01:39.984-07:00eep!Im still very confused as to why I want everyday of my feckin life to revolve around working out and eating the exact same foods?! haha I am crazy! me and my friends baked a cake last nite for my brothers 19th! it was so much fun but I wouldnt touch any of it and I just felt like some sort of freak! I was never even a cake person! altho I do like carrot cake or I did anyway! Im not down about why Im thinking like this because the soon is out and bikram yoga is having me in such a good positive mood! Im so glad the classes are on 7 days a week bc I get to go today and its sunday! plus its sunny today so my mom just asked me if I was up for a walk! so for this reason I had 2 table spoons of oats in my yoghurt! I know I know they are carbs but they are organic oats which skinny bitch luvs! and Im about to walk them off anywho! I still feel like my legs are untones and the backs of my arms and Im still doing my tricep dips everyday....so hopefully it will all come together for me! I tried to get a job yday and what a joke! recession indeed! nowhere would even take my cv haha! o well! my dad said I might be intitled to some money on the dole so Im gonna go check that out 2mro!<br />anywhoodle Im off to enjoy this beautiful day!<br />I need a job and a boyfriend soon tho! ever since I can remember Ive always been tryna get the perfect body so when I meet an absolute hotty I can feel confident! yet Ive never had a serious or long term boyfriend and Ive felt like this for years! waste of time perhaps? haha never! Im happy persuing the perfect body altho I would like to be a little less intense about it! I think when or if I get a job it will reduce the amount of hours in the day where working out is possible and my mind wont be so out of control1<br />epp mom cumin g2g!<br />xxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-32914666448260373102009-09-19T10:55:00.000-07:002009-09-19T11:01:20.388-07:00still disgustingwell I still feel absolutly digusting after my carb day! ewww! and its so annoying bc I cant fill up on fruit and veggies anymore bc their too strong and toxic and gassy on my tummy so all I want to eat is cereal and toast! but I will not! today I got up yoghurt banana flaxseed, 1 hr power walk, half a tin of soya beans, fruit box, 140 calorie lunch box -cauliflower and pototo salad I no potatoes yes! as my mom fokin pointed out! r u eating potato! yeh shut up! anyway then 90 mins of bikram yoga! ne one else do dat? and then 2 mangos and herbal tea! mite be going for a walk again but I rli dont feel dat great still! this is the first wkd I havent drank or gone out all summer!!! I no its not summer now but since I have no college or work it still feels that way to me!<br />Im gna go yoga gain 2mro! I luv it! seriously last time I tried bikram yoga I felt like I was constantly on the verge of dying! now Im dying to go!!!! I used to look at the clock every 10 mins now I look twice thats it! proud of myself!!! woop woop! still feel fat even tho Im not! well my upper body isnt! I was on this website yesterday real model diets or sumtin like that! it was gud! check it out!<br />o I got apple cider tablets!!<br />xxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187951705773376545.post-80117437449132613572009-09-18T13:17:00.000-07:002009-09-18T13:21:31.747-07:00the day after!well the day after my total agony I feel gud gud! well not brilliant but I said if I woke up at 11 Id get up and go to yoga at 12! which I did! and hopefully sweated away all da disgusting carbs I ate yday! ewww! I feel disgusted at my actions! I will not be eating cereal, digestive biscuits or peanut butter for the fore seeable future!<br />anyway I did a good bit of walking today too. went into town for my laser eye consoltation after yoga and after walked all across town to go shoplifting teehee! got me new boots, 2 new jeans, 2 new tops, a dress, 2 mascara and then I went to marks and spencers got a mini mango box and fruit box. I had a few kidney beans aswell and a bit of veg! nutin like b4 the thought makes me sick but I had too eat them or else I was worried Id binge on something else!<br />hopefeully Ill be able to get up for yoga 2mro its at 11! then going to get dressed not eat and hand out cvs! Ive got to make up for yday!<br />xxdietlexyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02665198652097214960noreply@blogger.com0